crying out to God

Seeing Isn't Always Believing

A Song. A Psalm of the Sons of Korah. To the choirmaster: according to Mahalath Leannoth. A Maskil of Heman the Ezrahite.

1 O LORD, God of my salvation,
    I cry out day and night before you.
2 Let my prayer come before you;
    incline your ear to my cry!

3 For my soul is full of troubles,
    and my life draws near to Sheol.
4 I am counted among those who go down to the pit;
    I am a man who has no strength,
5 like one set loose among the dead,
    like the slain that lie in the grave,
like those whom you remember no more,
    for they are cut off from your hand.
6 You have put me in the depths of the pit,
    in the regions dark and deep.
7 Your wrath lies heavy upon me,
    and you overwhelm me with all your waves. Selah

8 You have caused my companions to shun me;
    you have made me a horror to them.
I am shut in so that I cannot escape;
9     my eye grows dim through sorrow.
Every day I call upon you, O LORD;
    I spread out my hands to you.
10 Do you work wonders for the dead?
    Do the departed rise up to praise you? Selah
11 Is your steadfast love declared in the grave,
    or your faithfulness in Abaddon?
12 Are your wonders known in the darkness,
    or your righteousness in the land of forgetfulness?

13 But I, O LORD, cry to you;
    in the morning my prayer comes before you.
14 O LORD, why do you cast my soul away?
    Why do you hide your face from me?
15 Afflicted and close to death from my youth up,
    I suffer your terrors; I am helpless.
16 Your wrath has swept over me;
    your dreadful assaults destroy me.
17 They surround me like a flood all day long;
    they close in on me together.
18 You have caused my beloved and my friend to shun me;
    my companions have become darkness. – Psalm 88:1-18 ESV

The pessimism of this psalm makes most believers a bit uncomfortable. We might be able to relate to his rather refreshingly honest assessment of his condition because most of us have been there before. We’ve all experienced moments when life's circumstances overwhelm us, leaving us exasperated and perplexed. Overwhelmed by unexpected and inexplicable trials that seem to come in waves, we feel compelled to express our frustration and defend our integrity. In the face of unwanted difficulties, we cry, “Why?” 

O LORD, why do you cast my soul away?
    Why do you hide your face from me? – Psalm 88:14 ESV

Like the psalmist, we demand answers and explanations from God. We want Him to explain His seeming disinterest in our predicament or to justify His role in bringing it about. But we find the psalmist's unbridled and brutally blunt attacks on God go further than most of us would ever dare. He pulls no punches and displays no fear of offending the Almighty. In fact, he is unapologetic in blaming God for his circumstances.

You have thrown me into the lowest pit,
    into the darkest depths.
Your anger weighs me down;
    with wave after wave you have engulfed me. – Psalm 88:6-7 NLT

You have driven my friends away
    by making me repulsive to them. – Psalm 88:8 NLT

Your fierce anger has overwhelmed me.
    Your terrors have paralyzed me. – Psalm 88:16 NLT

You have taken away my companions and loved ones.
    Darkness is my closest friend. – Psalm 88:18 NLT

These are the words of a man who believes in God's sovereignty. In his spiritual worldview, Yahweh is in full control of everything, meting out blessings and curses as He sees fit. From the psalmist’s earthly vantage point, it appears as if he has done something to get on God’s naughty list, but he can’t imagine what it is. From his perspective, Yahweh’s anger is unjustified, and his suffering is undeserved.

While we know little about Heman, the author of this psalm, we can relate to his frustration. We might not dare to express our words as bluntly as he does, but we’ve all had moments when we wanted to put God on trial and cross-examine Him for His mismanagement of our affairs.

It's impossible to read Psalm 88 without thinking about Job's plight, which is recorded in the book that bears his name. According to the book's prologue, Job “was blameless—a man of complete integrity. He feared God and stayed away from evil” (Job 1:1 NLT). This glowing assessment of Job was not just the opinion of the book's author; it came directly from God Himself.

“Have you noticed my servant Job? He is the finest man in all the earth. He is blameless—a man of complete integrity. He fears God and stays away from evil.” – Job 1:8 NLT

According to God, Job was a righteous man whom He had blessed with wealth, an impeccable reputation, and a large family. But the story goes on to reveal that Satan questioned the source of Job’s allegiance to God. He accused Job of being a fair-weather God-follower who served for purely selfish reasons. 

“Yes, but Job has good reason to fear God. You have always put a wall of protection around him and his home and his property. You have made him prosper in everything he does. Look how rich he is! But reach out and take away everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face!” – Job 1:9-11 NLT

Satan believed Job was in it for what he could get out of it. In other words, his faithfulness was motivated by selfishness. To prove his point, Satan proposed a test that he believed would expose Job as a fraud. In fact, he convinced God to sanction a series of life-altering disasters that would rob Job of everything he had, including his wealth, health, reputation, and children. When the dust settled, Job was left a broken and embittered man who felt betrayed and abandoned by God.

For the Almighty has struck me down with his arrows.
    Their poison infects my spirit.
    God’s terrors are lined up against me.
Don’t I have a right to complain? – Job 6:4-5 NLT

Like Heman, Job believed in God's sovereignty, which made his suffering so difficult to understand. His well-meaning friends didn't make things any easier when they accused him of only getting what he deserved. From their perspective, Job’s suffering had to be tied to sin. He had done something to offend God and would continue to suffer until he confessed and repented. But Job rejected their logic and refused to accept responsibility for his circumstances. Instead, he blamed God.

Why won’t you leave me alone,
    at least long enough for me to swallow!
If I have sinned, what have I done to you,
    O watcher of all humanity?
Why make me your target?
    Am I a burden to you? – Job 7:19-20 NLT

Both Job and Heman called on God. In their pain and suffering, they directed their questions to the One they believed was responsible and capable of turning their fate around.

O LORD, God of my salvation,
    I cry out to you by day.
    I come to you at night.
Now hear my prayer;
    listen to my cry. – Psalm 88:1-2 NLT

“You must defend my innocence, O God,
    since no one else will stand up for me.” – Job 17:3 NLT

Though Job and Heman lived centuries apart, they were kindred spirits. Both of these men were God-followers who clung to their belief in His sovereignty and held onto their hope that His love and compassion would come through in the end.  They feared death and longed for deliverance. Abandoned by their friends, they turned to Yahweh for help and hope.

But this psalm seems to end on a purely negative note.

You have taken away my companions and loved ones.
    Darkness is my closest friend. – Psalm 88:18 NLT

Unlike Job's story, Heman's plight has no resolution or happy ending. There is no last-minute reprieve or divine intervention that produces a storybook ending  At least Job got to see the salvation of the Lord.

…the Lord restored his fortunes. In fact, the Lord gave him twice as much as before! Then all his brothers, sisters, and former friends came and feasted with him in his home. And they consoled him and comforted him because of all the trials the Lord had brought against him. And each of them brought him a gift of money and a gold ring.

So the Lord blessed Job in the second half of his life even more than in the beginning. For now he had 14,000 sheep, 6,000 camels, 1,000 teams of oxen, and 1,000 female donkeys. He also gave Job seven more sons and three more daughters. He named his first daughter Jemimah, the second Keziah, and the third Keren-happuch. In all the land no women were as lovely as the daughters of Job. And their father put them into his will along with their brothers.

Job lived 140 years after that, living to see four generations of his children and grandchildren. Then he died, an old man who had lived a long, full life. – Job 42:10-17 NLT

Yet, as Derek Kidner notes, Heman's story ends in darkness.

“With darkness as its final word, what is the role of this psalm in Scripture? For the beginning of an answer we may note, first, its witness to the possibility of unrelieved suffering as a believer’s earthly lot. The happy ending of most psalms of this kind is seen to be a bonus, not a due; its withholding is not a proof of either God’s displeasure or His defeat. Secondly, the psalm adds its voice to the ‘groaning in travail’ which forbids us to accept the present order as final. It is a sharp reminder that ‘we wait for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies’ (Rom. 8:22f). Thirdly, this author, like Job, does not give up. He completes his prayer, still in the dark and totally unrewarded. The taunt, ‘Does Job fear God for naught?’, is answered yet again. Fourthly, the author’s name allows us, with hindsight, to see that his rejection was only apparent (see the opening comments on the psalm). His existence was no mistake; there was a divine plan bigger than he knew, and a place in it reserved most carefully for him.” – Derek Kidner, Psalms 73—150. Tyndale Old Testament Commentaries series

So, what are we to make of Heman's psalm? How do we apply this rather bleak and pessimistic “song” to our daily lives? Its lack of resolution should not surprise or disappoint us because we know God was not done with Heman. While we don't know the outcome of Heman's circumstance, we can rest assured that God was fully aware of its cause and its outcome. There is much in this life that we will never comprehend. Our earth-bound, limited perspective prevents us from seeing things as God does. When surrounded by darkness and unable to see any semblance of light on the horizon, we must trust that God knows all and sees all. Like Heman, when we see no way out, we must cry out to God for help. He may delay, but He will never refuse to hear and answer. The salvation we long for may not come as expected, but it will come. Our God is faithful, and His timing is perfect. But more importantly, our God is eternal and not limited by time and space. We demand answers now. We expect an immediate resolution to our present problems. But God operates on a divine schedule that always has the end in mind.

“Look, God’s home is now among his people! He will live with them, and they will be his people. God himself will be with them. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.”

And the one sitting on the throne said, “Look, I am making everything new!” And then he said to me, “Write this down, for what I tell you is trustworthy and true.” – Revelation 21:3-5 NLT

Father, in this life things don't always go as expected. Difficulties come. Pain and suffering are daily realities. Death is an unavoidable part of living in a fallen world. But You are never out of control or out of reach. You never turn Your back on us or fail to know what is happening at any given moment. And You always have a plan that is perfect, just, and righteous. I may know it or understand it but I can trust You with it. Help me to live with an eternal perspective that focuses on Your faithfulness and rests in Your promise to make all things new — in Your time. Amen

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Prayer For Guidance.

Then all the commanders of the forces, and Johanan the son of Kareah and Jezaniah the son of Hoshaiah, and all the people from the least to the greatest, came near  and said to Jeremiah the prophet, “Let our plea for mercy come before you, and pray to the Lord your God for us, for all this remnant—because we are left with but a few, as your eyes see us—that the Lord your God may show us the way we should go, and the thing that we should do.” – Jeremiah 42:1-3 ESV

Have you ever been at a loss as to what to do? Maybe you have found yourself going through what appears to be the discipline of God for something you have done and you want to know what your next steps should be. The people of Judah found themselves in that very predicament. They were surrounded by the military forces of Babylon and under the disciplinary judgment of God for their persistent sin and rebellion against Him. In fact, Jerusalem had already fallen to the Babylonians and thousands of their friends and fellow countrymen had already been taken captive to Babylon. They were the remnant that had been left. Their king, Zedekiah, had been captured by the Babylonians as he attempted to escape the city at night. He was taken to Nebuchadnezzar, the king of Babylonian, where he was forced to watch as all his sons were killed right in front of him, then he had his own eyes gouged out. The remnant that had been left knew their days were numbered. They had no king, no army, and no hope. There were some among them who wanted to turn to Egypt for help. Rather than take their problem to God, they thought they could solve it themselves with a little outside help. Others were recommending flight. We should just run away, they counseled. Some were even suggesting Egypt as the destination for their flight. So what should they do? Wisely, if not a bit too tardily, they decided to ask God. So they asked Jeremiah to go to God on their behalf and ask Him for guidance. What did He want them to do? You see, they were confused and divided. They asked, “that the Lord your God may show us the way we should go, and the thing that we should do.” Now that all was in a shambles and they had no other viable options, they suddenly decided to take their problem to God. They even promised to do whatever God said, if only He would answer them. “May the Lord be a true and faithful witness against us if we do not act according to all the word with which the Lord your God sends you to us. Whether it is good or bad, we will obey the voice of the Lord our God to whom we are sending you, that it may be well with us when we obey the voice of the Lord our God” (Jeremiah 42:5-6 ESV). But would all this prove to be too little, too late? Would God refuse to answer their request because of their consistent refusal to listen to His prophets and their call to repentance?

God answered. He made them sweat it out for ten days, but He answered. “Thus says the Lord, the God of Israel, to whom you sent me to present your plea for mercy before him: If you will remain in this land, then I will build you up and not pull you down; I will plant you, and not pluck you up; for I relent of the disaster that I did to you. Do not fear the king of Babylon, of whom you are afraid. Do not fear him, declares the Lord, for I am with you, to save you and to deliver you from his hand. I will grant you mercy, that he may have mercy on you and let you remain in your own land” (Jeremiah 42:9-12 ESV). God's answer was conditional. It contains an if-then statement. God promised to build them up, to plant them, to relent, to be with them, to save and deliver them, to show them mercy and allow them remain in the land – IF they would simply remain in the land and trust Him. Everything in them said to run and God knew it. He knew what they were thinking. He knew they were wanting to turn their attention to Egypt and place their trust in them. But while everything around them looked bleak and beyond hope, God wanted them to know that He was not done. He would even cause the king of Babylon to show them mercy. But if they refused to listen to God and took matters into their own hands, God would punish them just as He had their friends and neighbors. “Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel: If you set your faces to enter Egypt and go to live there, then the sword that you fear shall overtake you there in the land of Egypt, and the famine of which you are afraid shall follow close after you to Egypt, and there you shall die. All the men who set their faces to go to Egypt to live there shall die by the sword, by famine, and by pestilence. They shall have no remnant or survivor from the disaster that I will bring upon them’ (Jeremiah 42:15-17 ESV).

Even in the midst of our most difficult situations, including those that are the result of our own sin and rebellion, we can call out to God for help and guidance. But we must be willing to listen to what He has to say. God will answer. He will give us direction, but we must obey Him – even when it seems to make no sense. Fear and flight may seem the most logical next step, but if God says, “Stay!”, we must stay. There is only one thing worse than refusing to seek guidance from the Lord, and that is to refuse to obey His guidance once you have sought it. God's will may not make sense to us. His guidance may seem counter intuitive. Everything in us may scream that our way makes more sense, but we must obey. God answers when we call. But the question is whether we will obey when He answers.