29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? Who is made to fall, and I am not indignant?
30 If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. 31 The God and Father of the Lord Jesus, he who is blessed forever, knows that I am not lying. 32 At Damascus, the governor under King Aretas was guarding the city of Damascus in order to seize me, 33 but I was let down in a basket through a window in the wall and escaped his hands.
1 I must go on boasting. Though there is nothing to be gained by it, I will go on to visions and revelations of the Lord. – 2 Corinthians 11:29-12:1 ESV
Paul has just finished saying, “there is the daily pressure on me of my anxious concern for all the churches” (2 Corinthians 11:28b ESV). He felt a strong sense of responsibility for all those in whose salvation he had played a part. He saw himself as their spiritual father, and they held a special place in his heart. He went out of his way to relate to them and to share in their lives. In his first letter, he described his attitude toward ministry.
When I am with the Gentiles who do not follow the Jewish law, I too live apart from that law so I can bring them to Christ. But I do not ignore the law of God; I obey the law of Christ. When I am with those who are weak, I share their weakness, for I want to bring the weak to Christ. Yes, I try to find common ground with everyone, doing everything I can to save some. I do everything to spread the Good News and share in its blessings. – 1 Corinthians 9:21-23 NLT
He echoed that same sentiment when he wrote, “Who is weak without my feeling that weakness? Who is led astray, and I do not burn with anger?” (2 Corinthians 11:29 NLT). Paul had a deep desire to meet people where they were and to minister to them with empathy and compassion. He wasn’t some academically-minded, theologically-focused professor who loved to dump information, but was incapable of relating to his students. Paul was incredibly intelligent, but also remarkably relational. His love for people showed up in his willingness to come alongside them in their weakness and help them grow.
Some pastors and teachers struggle to relate to people because they fear opening up and exposing their own failures and weaknesses. They feel the need to present themselves as having it all together and being on top of their spiritual game. They seem to fear that if they share their struggles, they will lose the respect and admiration of those in their flock. But Paul was willing to brag about his weaknesses; he was an open book. He believed his life was a powerful testimony to God’s power made visible through man’s weakness. Which is what led him to write, “I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me” (2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT).
While his adversaries, the false apostles, were busy bragging about their qualifications and attempting to establish themselves as superior to Paul, he quietly and confidently gave another example of his “weakness.” On one occasion, while Paul was ministering in Damascus, the governor had the city surrounded in an attempt to seize him. To save himself, Paul escaped by being lowered in a basket outside the city walls. This event took place several years after his divine encounter with the resurrected Christ on the road to Damascus. That life-altering experience had transformed Paul from a persecutor of Christians to a faithful follower of Jesus. And, according to Luke, it didn't take Paul long to begin fulfilling the commission given to him by Christ. Luke records:
For some days he was with the disciples at Damascus. And immediately he proclaimed Jesus in the synagogues, saying, “He is the Son of God.” And all who heard him were amazed and said, “Is not this the man who made havoc in Jerusalem of those who called upon this name? And has he not come here for this purpose, to bring them bound before the chief priests?” But Saul increased all the more in strength, and confounded the Jews who lived in Damascus by proving that Jesus was the Christ. – Acts 9:19-22 ESV
Eventually, Paul left Damascus and headed into the Arabian wilderness, where he spent three years being prepared for his commission (Galatians 1:13-18). During his time in Arabia, it is likely that Paul evangelized the people who lived there. Eventually, he returned to Damascus, where he received a less-than-cordial reception from the local Jewish contingent. Luke records what happened to Paul upon his arrival in Damascus after a 3-year absence.
When many days had passed, the Jews plotted to kill him, but their plot became known to Saul. They were watching the gates day and night in order to kill him, but his disciples took him by night and let him down through an opening in the wall, lowering him in a basket. – Acts 9:19-25 ESV
But Paul adds an important point of clarification.
When I was in Damascus, the governor under King Aretas kept guards at the city gates to catch me. I had to be lowered in a basket through a window in the city wall to escape from him. – 2 Corinthians 11:32-33 NLT
Aretas was the King of Arabia, where Paul had spent three years preparing for the commission he had been given by Christ. The city of Damascus was part of Arabia, and it seems that King Aretas was unhappy about Paul’s evangelistic efforts in the towns and villages within his domain. He ordered the governor of Damascus to arrest Paul as soon as he arrived in town.
It had not taken long for Paul to discover that his commission to take the gospel to the Gentiles was going to be difficult and dangerous. He was a driven individual with tremendous gifts and capabilities, but he soon discovered that his natural attributes were no match for the spiritual warfare he would face as a spokesman for God. He was going to need spiritual power to fight what was a purely spiritual battle. It seems that in Damascus, not only was the governor out to get him, but the Jews were as well. He found himself in deep trouble and had to escape from town with the help of the local believers. But he lived to share the gospel again.
Paul was just a man, but he was a man who had been saved by Christ and given a job to do. He was flawed and had a sinful nature just like everyone else, and he struggled with the effects of indwelling sin and fleshly desires. And yet, even in his weakness, he found the strength to do what he had been called to do. His ministry was solely the work of God, and he had to rely on God’s provision just to meet his daily needs. He had to trust in God’s power to protect him from his growing list of enemies. He had to rely on the peace of God to fill him and calm his fears and doubts. He had to constantly depend on the indwelling presence of God’s Spirit to motivate him and minister to him.
For Paul, weakness was not something for which he felt ashamed; he wore his weakness like a badge of honor. The weaker he felt, the more reliant he became on the power of God. His weakness was not a detriment to God’s work; it was an essential prerequisite to being used by God. As Paul told the Corinthians in his first letter, God has a habit of using the weak and seemingly worthless to accomplish His will in the world.
God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important. As a result, no one can ever boast in the presence of God. – 1 Corinthians 1:27-29 NLT
Father, we see weakness as a liability, but You view it as an invaluable asset, because it is only in our weakness that we become dependent upon You. Paul gloried in his weakness because it reminded him just how much he needed You to accomplish his mission. I want to live with that mindset, but it is so easy to see my weaknesses as failures or faults. I have a difficult time grasping Paul’s comment, “When I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Corinthians 12:10 NLT). I think it's because I believe I must correct all my weaknesses before You can use me. But Paul saw it differently. For him, weakness was a prerequisite for usefulness. His awareness of his own inadequacies didn’t depress him, it actually motivated him. It created a dependence upon You that allowed Your power to shine through. I want to embrace the attitude that Paul had when he wrote, “We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves” (2 Corinthians 4:7 NLT). When I am willing to admit my insufficiencies and inadequacies, it allows Your power to show up and shine through me — for Your glory and my good. Amen
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